I just watched a video on how to make modern websites and I’m feeling a little inspired to provide my own feedback and assessment on the topic.

Here’s the original video for reference:

What I would add to this would be this:

Learn how to do it, then understand how to design it.

Basically, after you copy good websites, you want to make something impressive you can call your own. To do that, use what you learned.

Reiterate. Reimplement. Change, fix, or improve.

Something could be done different. Picking apart will help you understand why they did it the way they did it. Maybe they had a good reason to do it that way. Or, maybe they didn’t know any better. Or, maybe they weren’t getting paid enough to do something different.

Copying is when you learn how to do it, but ripping it apart and rebuilding it into something new is when you learn how to design it.

But isn’t that missing the point? Isn’t the whole purpose that the video, and web development as a field, to learn how to do it?

No, not at all! Don’t confuse purpose with point. The point of developing any skill is to know how to do something. Doing, however, doesn’t improve you in a meaningful way, not even in terms of a paycheck! If you can mimic as an approximation, you are a less efficient, more costly version of an LLM. You’re a template. A pre-arranged set of assumed totals.

The purpose of developing skills is to be able to build upon, to comprehend something. To grow, and learn. To shift and improve incredible, novel ways. The purpose of skills are understanding.

Let me put it another way: You don’t study for a math test to get a good grade, you don’t even study for a math test to graduate school. No! You study for a math test because you have self-respect. You study because you want to assert what you already hold of value within yourself. When your grade falls short of what you feel you put in, it’s your integrity – your inner worth, that is injured.

I should know! I’ve been the guy who doesn’t study. Heck, I’ve been the guy who was “proud” at the fact of getting a bad grade on many math tests; My thinking at the time was simply a matter of “If I can’t be proud of being the best, I can certainly get attention by being the worst!” It’s a phase in my life I still grimace and grit my teeth at, any time it comes to mind. It was simply a means to match my grade to the value and esteem that I held myself to.

Later, when I actually began to apply, and to try my best to study I did so because I didn’t want to be looked down on. I did so because I didn’t want to feel useless and worthless. I did so because I wanted to learn something valuable and crucially important; so I could value myself and to become important. I did so because I valued the merit and importance of the subject, and wanted to value myself in that same regard.

Please then, leave mimicry to robots and small children. Leave impressions and “doing” to the helm of actively learning. Your purpose is not, cannot, and never should be to simply to do, but instead to accomplish! Your purpose, the value you put upon yourself should be in terms of design ; in terms of mastery ; in terms of expertise. And that is why it is said that “copying is bad”. Copying isn’t bad as a means to learn from, and or to develop and grow by.

Copying is bad as a means to an ends.

Your means are wonderfully infinite.

Your ends are to design, not to simply to do.

Take pride in whoever you are, and what you have done. Have pride in the value you have for yourself, and do not be bashful to want more for yourself. To possess these things is to say that you acknowledge your inherent value.

For the doer, however, their value cannot ever be separated from the mere act of “do, or do not”. Their merit cannot go any further than simplistic “pass or fail”. The man who aims to learn is the one who will never be done, but will always be fulfilled. The one who aims merely to accomplish is the one who will cyclically be in a state of doing, but never succeeding. Working, but never accomplishing. Acting, but never thinking, or learning, or growing. His hunger will be of a literal sense. He is the kind of man who can never sit down because he never bothered to learn to stand.

I assure you, everything you are about to read is tragically completely true.

We’re calling out for a hero

A number of years back, I was dealing with a new hire who claimed to be an “expert” in all Microsoft products. I won’t go into specifics as to why, but know that we needed someone who specifically could work with Microsoft Access. After several months of postings, interviews, and, subsequent rejections, we came across a fellow who claimed he could do the work.

Not only had he used it, he assured us that he had used it extensively, and was an expert at it! I remember on his first day confidently saying, “It will be no problem at all for me!”

Also note that I had no part in this hiring process, but merely had to deal with whatever we were handed in terms of staff.

Now…it wasn’t so much that I didn’t trust this guy, I wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt, but we had had to tell HR repeatedly that we were not looking for someone who knew Excel or Word, but specifically Access.

After brief introductions, I launched into it to rip the band-aide off.

Me: Okay. Are you sure you know what Microsoft Access is an how to use it? I need to know now if that’s not the case. We need someone who can work in Access, not Excel.

Expert: Oh, of course I’ve used Access! I’m great at it!

Me: Okay, cool. And you’ve used it a lot, right? We won’t have time to train someone in how to-

Expert: Yep! I’ve used Access tons. I know all about it.

Me: Okay. Sounds good.

I gave a brief spiel about how I knew this was his first day and everything, and that he shouldn’t feel pressured into doing a whole lot today. We were going to start off very light and just make sure he’s all setup with everything he’ll need to get started.


There will be a test on this

In preparation for this new hire, I had been asked to make a small “test” of sorts a few weeks prior. In reality, it was really just a very simplistic, step-by-step guide to make sure they could follow basic instructions. To ensure I wasn’t being too haphazard in my wording, I did a few personal “dry runs” of it myself. I also had a few other people in the office who hadn’t ever used Access give it a try.

One of them laughed saying, “Wait…if they already know how to use Access, how could they possibly screw this up, then? This isn’t a challenge!” I told him it was just for an extra bit of confirmation and that they might have “new guy jitters”, and that I wanted to see if they had any glaring weak points we needed to know about. He sighed and nodded in agreement; we had dealt with some low quality candidates in a few other areas, so it seemed prudent to have a few post-hiring filters in place.

And, to be clear: There was nothing hard in this guide. No trick questions. No open ended quizzes of, “How do you do this?”, or “What does that mean?” It was literally step-by-step, “Go to file, click on this, and choose that. Send (email address) the file you exported.” That sort of thing.


The ravages of time

Tragically, sometime over the proceeding years I’ve lost my copy of the guide I had made, but I still remember it the beginning of that guide:

1) Open Microsoft Access

Our newly hired Access Expert could not get passed this step. I promise you…I am not making this up. This really did happen.

And for context, we’re not talking about the early 1980’s or something. This was maybe 2016 or so.


The cat is in the bag

The interaction went something like this:

Expert: Access? Oh, it’s not installed on this computer. I’ll need to install it!

Me: Oh, no sir…it is. It’s installed on all of these computers. It’s there, just take your time and go-

Expert: Uh, no. It’s not on here. I need to install it.

He proceeds to go to Microsoft’s website and insists that he would need to download and install it.

Me: Sir, these are secure computers. We can’t just install anything we want. Please don’t do that; even if you can download it, you wouldn’t have admin permissions to install it. Just use the start menu and look for Access. I promise you it’s in there. I checked that computer just yesterday to make sure it’d be on there.

Expert: Well, it’s not there now!

Me: Please…just look. It’s on there. Give it a try. If you look and it’s not, we can figure it out. Just go look, first.

This went on, and on, and on. I must have asked him 5 or 6 different ways to encourage him to look for it. After a while I figured “Okay, this is fine. He’s probably just flustered and is having a little meltdown right now because he wants to make a good impression.” Instead of harping on it, I tried to reassure him.

Me: Hey, don’t worry about all of this. Just take a little bit to think it over. If you think you’ve got it figured out, go ahead. I feel weird when I have people watching me work. I’ve got to use the bathroom, but I’ll be back in a little bit. Sound good?

He agreed.

I took my time, strolled to the bathroom. Drank some water from our disgusting water fountain. Ate a quick snack to get that horrendous taste “water” taste out of my mouth. Eventually I came back over about 20 minutes later. I figured at this point he should have been able to calm down a bit, check the entire search menu and find it and is probably already gotten onto a third or fourth step.


And the bag is in the river

I arrived back at his computer to find that he had downloaded Access, and was complaining to someone else that he couldn’t install it. He was now demanding the administrator account info, so he could begin installing Access. He also wanted to know what license he should use after it’s installed.

Me: Sir, I’m telling you, it’s already on there. Here, let me check.

I took over his computer for a minute and double checked the menu and visually confirmed…yep, Access was already installed.

Me: I see it. It’s on there. Uh, here – let’s try something different. I’ll guide you through this together, okay? Bring up the start menu.

Queue awkward silence. He had no idea what I am talking about. I am now internally screaming.

Me: …Move your mouse to the lower left of the screen and click.

He does.

Me: Okay. Now…look for Microsoft and open it.

He does. Great. Maybe he’s just having an epic level brain fart? I remember what it was like being The New Guy. Maybe he’s just not good when he’s under pressure.

Me: Now open Access.

Expert: It’s not there! I don’t see it.

Me: Do you see the one that says Access 2013? Click on that.

Expert: I don’t see it listed. Oh! THERE IT IS!


You say “tomato”, I say “Access”

He clicks on Excel.

Me: Oh? No. You clicked on the wrong one. That’s Excel. We want Access, remember?

Expert: Huh?

Me: Access. Microsoft…Access… The thing we use for Databases.

Expert: Yeah, that’s what I opened.

At this point, I am past the point of patience. It’s not even 11 AM.

Me: No. You did not. This…is Excel. Close this.

I am now 100% positive this is a lost cause, but want to see what will happen, I also need something to point to as for why this “isn’t working”. I guide him back through the start menu and I point at the entry.

Me: Access. This one. Access 2013.

Expert: Oh…access! Uh…right! Of course! I uh, thought you said Excel!

He opens it.

Immediate, overwhelming deer-in-the-headlights.

Expert: I, uh- Hmm…yeah. I uh… I don’t

Me: Have you used this before?

Expert: I’ve used Excel a whole lot…but I, don’t know what this one is. I can learn it though!

In total, I think he lasted about 2 hours in the office, but may have been paid for the entire day? Who knows! HR got an ear.


Moral of the story

For the love of all that is good: Please, do not lie on job interviews. Sure, maybe there are times where a little embellishment is acceptable, if you feel particularly strong at something. Lying, however, just wastes everyone’s time.

“But what about the position?!” I hear you ask.

Tragically, I left that job a year or two later, before we ever found our next Access Expert.